It's getting worse. I think I can see it getting worse just between morning and evening. I haven't got the slightest idea what's going to happen at my appointment tomorrow. I just don't know. I keep looking and looking, and I can't find any significant amount of information on this, not enough to make me feel informed and reassure me. I don't like not knowing what's going to happen and why.

Here's a picture of the current problem:



As you can see, the upper stitch that had been left in for support is completely gone now. It fell out this morning. You can also see the upper portion appears to be expanding up the vertical incision, where I had thought this area was improving. Along the bottom horizontal incision, it has opened deeper and deeper over the past two days. The edges appear to be reddening, which makes me wonder if it's now getting infected.

It hurts now. Not bad, not yet, but I feel it more each day. It's like a stinging sensation right now, most noticeable whenever that part of my belly is moved. I'm beginning to wonder if this was really worth it. Maybe I should have waited a few years, but then I'd just be older and probably healing even worse. I'm sure everything will work out one way or another, and I'll look back and think, "No big deal," but right now I'm scared. I just don't know enough.